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I can't believe me. 2 days of being single, and I'm already going and doing stuff with some new guy. I woke up this morning, just dripping shame. I can't believe this. I feel so out of control of my life. I know I'm a passionate person, but this is absolutely ridiculous. I even was thinking that "I should not be doing this" when I was with him, but I didn't stop. I do feel bad about it, with all my heart. I'm near tears, honestly... How could I? On the up-side... My folks and brother came down today. It was nice, because I was able to touch people, and be touched in return. Of course, (as always with my family) I was the center of attention (wether it be good or bad). So it was nice. Andrea called me back, and said she was NOT going to the concert. So I guess... I am going alone. x.x I'll dress super cute so that people will think I'm with someone. Maybe I'll call Loveleen and see if she wants to go. That could be cool. Oh yes, BTW, I am going to the Radial Angel concert tomorrow. Some of the guys from the BSU are going to be in one of the bands that is opening for them. So, I'm going to be moral support. Not to mention, I REALLY like Radial Angel. Uhm... what else? Last night was fun. I went to play capture the flag with some people, and after that we went to have cokes at McDonalds, and then to go rent video games... then we went and played video games. So yeah... That part was a lot of good, clean, wholesome fun. Bleh, I can't get over it. I'm gonna make it right, though. I have to. I'm going to ask him if we can start over as just friends, and if somthing more comes of it, then so be it. I feel like I'm using him, and vice-versa. I mean, while I was leading him on, he was dishing out all the lines... "You're so pretty." "I feel like I'm growing very close to you, even though we've only known each other 2 days." and everyone's all time favorite "You know I would never hurt you." I've heard that all MANY times before, and I know that 90% of the time it is pure bull hockey, yet I make him believe that I agree. What is wrong with this picture? Uhg! I am so horrible. Shame. Shame. SHAME! ~TK PS. Uhg... after that... look what I get? 
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